I am not the cannibal king....

Finwe was walking around the room cheerfully. It was 3 days before his birthday, and he was really eager to see will anyone remember.. Though, he was an old elf, and he did forget a few birthdays of his other family members, or he had no time to make good gifts, so he turned the blind eye and pretended he forget... But he hoped at least someone will remember his...
He wondered should he made cookies, or he should do something else, maybe some big cake with chocolate...
In that moment, someone knocked on the door.. And Finwe raised his head, wandering who that might be, and opened the door:
" Oh, Finrod, dear! Come in! You look like something is troubling you... "
And Firod indeed looked like that; like he will jump and run away every second...
But what made Finwe concern the most, were words he said:
"Grandfather, I'm hearing some strange news about you trying to eat Mahtan. Is that true?"
Finwe's jaw dropped. Seriously,seriously dropped:" Who, me?" he asked innocently, completely astonished.
"Yes, you. " Finrod confirmed seriously,with same scared tone between the lines..."The family is getting really scared for... and of you, you know..."

Finwe felt his head is spinning... His whole world turned upside down, but he just managed to whisper: "Er.. But.. I was just joking with Mahtan.. He knows it, I am sure... I just liked idea of him being as cute as his jelly cakes... " he really could not find enough strength to stand, so he sat, and continued sadly " So I joked about eating him so I can get some free cake instead..."
Then his voice trembled slightly, and he just asked what troubled him the most:
"Is..Is it true? ... They are scared of.....me? "

"Oh yes, they are! " Finrod added, not realizing what these words meant to Finwe.. And he thoughtfully, like only he can, retell Finwe everything his relatives told about him... With every word, his heart ached... He can not believe how his intentions could be so easily mistaken.. He could not believe everyone took his words so seriously, while he was just *joking* all the time.. He could not believe so many of his relatives he loved so much could even think of such a horrible thing as him eating Mahtan has anything but joke in it, and he really froze when Finrod mentioned Prozac.. How..How could they?
"..I was really scared for a moment as well... " Finrod admitted with a slight smile,that seriously was glad his grandfather is not cannibal..  "You should explain to them that you just want some free cake, I'm sure they will be relieved."

"Thank you...." I whispered " For telling me this.. I will.. Talk with all of them... Right now.. Just.. Give me a moment..."
And Finrod, Eru bless him, left.. And I.. I first hid face in my palms, but I found out I can't even cry... Then I curled on my bed...  I was that hurt... I would rather accept Morgoth killing me again and never leaving Mandos, than living to hear this.. This was like an arrow straight from the sky.... That hit me straight in my heart....
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Finwe met Orodeth in the hall: " You better, *better* have really good excuse for this... "he looked at him with disbelief and offence, completely aware that Orodeth know he knows "
"I *want* to speak with all of you..." he added coldly and left Orodeth, not allowing him to add even one word...
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He brutally entered the room, almost breaking the door. He had no will to search around to see how many and which, but there were lot familiar family faces, and he knew they were talking about him....

"How could you?" he jelled " How could you say such things about me!!!?? I thought... I thought you know me at least good enough to know when I am joking and when I am not...Mahtan " he looked at him with deeply sad eyes " Did I ever done anything but good to you? Did I? We were friends for so long, for Eru's sake, I even married my son with your daughter!! How then you could you even think I was serious the other day when I told I will eat you? I was just in good mood, thinking about, if you all forgot, and I am sure you did, about my b-day that is in few days, so I started talk about jelly, and *joked* Indis " he looked at her, horror in his eyes " Prozac? I need to go on medications? How could you? When the other day you asked is it true I wanted to eat Mahtan, I was so shocked that  conversation is still open, I closed it after Mahtan made me free jelly cake... And then you started giving me speech how I should not eat my relations, and it was so absurd I had to prank with you, asking you  can I have one bite at least! But for Eru's sake, it was A JOKE!!!!"

He finally stopped for just a second, and sighed deeply... But not allowing anyone to continue he added coldly:
"You talked about... Secret  ingredients for my cookies.... You thought" he averted his gaze in disgust.. " I know you thought... Something that is not worthy even to be said out loud... And now... I will tell you. I WILL  tell you what it is... "
He looked at all of them, suddenly feeling like he's not talking to family, but to strangers:
" There is NO secret ingredient! My cookies are ordinary chocolate cookies and to make them you need simple things, like *chocolate*... I get ingredients every time I go to shop, but you never notice, do you? You never notice how much I effort I put while  I am making, you only eat, and then overeaten it's easy to came up with silly rumors  about other people!!!! "
Once again, he didn't allow them to say anything.. He was enraged, he was offended, he felt so bad... He only added:
" Do you want to know why my cookies are so special when they are ordinary? It is because I am making them for my family... For people I care about.. For people that mean a *whole world* to me... I.. I thought... I mean at least something to you as well..... I thought at least in some points I was.. Precious to you... As much as you are precious to me... "he looked down, tears steaming from his eyes "But it seems I was wrong... Oh, Eru, why? Why you made me live this? Oh, Valars, why you let me leave Mandos to go trough this? "

And with no words, not waiting for excuses, he went toward door.. And at them, he simply whispered before he ran away: " I will never.. Ever forgive you... "

And if they decided to search for him later... They would realize.... He  was nowhere to be found... Only thing they would see.. Would be some unfinished  cookies thrown in trash...